As the latest in our occasional series of writing and self-publishing memoirs, Sally Hedges Greenwood ARPS shares her specialist experience of creating one driven by its photographic content, as part of a planned series of photographic books.
Making Connections With Photography®
I am a photographer.
It took me four decades to finally commit those words to paper and another 2 to add ‘– a survivor of child abuse.’ I have lived a life with photography that was previously overshadowed by the abusive events of my childhood.
In 2004, when I was in my early 40s, I started to separate out the jumble. In 2014, I published a limited edition tome of over 400 pages, including 1,300 photographs, which had taken eight years to write and put together. Entitled With Photography – not just an autobiography, the last word I added, having deliberated about it for some time, before I uploaded the .pdf files to the publisher was on the title page: ‘UNABRIDGED’. I realised there was more work to be done.
My ‘photobiography’, Making Connections With Photography®, was published two years later. It reveals the connections that I have made between my family history and my life with photography. The photographs that I took at the various stages chart my story as I survived, grew up and eventually moved away from the effects of a prolonged abusive situation that started when I was just nine years old. Each stage of my development includes its visual metaphors, as I came to call the type of photographs that I took at each particular moment.
In Making Connections With Photography® I reveal the photographs with their associations that were too raw and complex to explain or even understand, until now.
I first learnt of my heritage and family history from family photographs kept in an old brown cardboard box our mother would delve into when she needed to distract my sister and I when we were unwell. Our minds were whisked away from our sore tummies – and the accompanying kaolin and morphine – as we marvelled and laughed at the stories we were told. This was my introduction to photography and also, subliminally, to the use of the medium as ‘therapy’, not only for me; I came to realise that my mother had used these photographs as a coping strategy of her own.
I’d grown up as a privileged but vulnerable child of parents who were still coping with the after-effects of the Second World War and the recent death of my grandmother. They were totally unprepared for the present, but my mother’s body clock was ticking. She was 38 when I was born in 1957.
The farmhouse that we lived in with my grandfather was huge, scary and very dark! So dark that an upside-down image could clearly be seen on the wall of an internal passageway when the morning sun was shining, I stopped dead in my tracks the moment I saw what I now know was a real camera obscura projected through the keyhole of the dining room door. I was onlyfive years old. I ran into the kitchen and enthusiastically tugged Gramps’ arm to come and see. Years later, when I had the ability and equipment to do so, I photographed it.
My research revealed only recently that it was my grandfather that had taken the grouping of my affluent and formal Victorian ancestors on his first day at boarding school, in about 1889. Perhaps, as a photographer himself, my observation impressed him because, soon after, he gave me my very own camera. From that moment I used photography in the many and different ways I share in Making Connections With Photography®.
Without realising it at the time, by taking and creating photographs I have led myself through the process of survival and understanding.
Learning to analyse the photographs of others, I discovered a power in photography – for the photographer – that then meant I could decode the photographs that, unlike a written diary had I kept one at the time, was only previously understood by me.
Making Connections With Photography® shares my story.
The photograph on the front cover of Making Connections With Photography® entitled ‘Mingling With The Crowd’ was taken and exhibited in 2004:
“I wasn’t ready to stand on centre stage, but I was ready to mingle with the crowd.” Although tiny and almost hidden in the darkness of my past, “……… the exit was clearly visible, it had been there all the time!”
The With Photography® series of books published and nearing publication
- The Power in Photography – for the photographer – nearing publication
- With Photography – not just an autobiography – published 2014
- Making Connections With Photography® – published 2016
- Ryvita® Life – With Photography® – published 2017
- Bhaktivedanta Manor – the UK Home of the Hare Krishna Movement With Photography® – nearing publication
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